video || second chances

[fervidity]

[The recent post made by WTF (or WoTF) has finally prompted Kushina to make an entry again, addressing this world at large and the people in it. Or at least those that can see this.

First, a deep breath.]

I don't know if anybody has been thanked for all the effort, for putting their lives on the line to save this world by those of us who don't remember how bad it was. There were people who made this place better for everyone and went back in time. It still sounds ridiculous to me and kind of impossible but this world is good at making impossible things possible, isn't it? [Like bringing people back to life.

Minato was good at it too. Space-time and doing impossible things.]

So... thank you. [At the end, her voice nearly cracks and she bows her head before lifting it again.

Now. Her smile is sad.]

It seems like we can go home soon, huh? That's good. We should go home because that's where we belong. Even if we have a choice to stay, we should go home in the end. So many people have fought for us to do just that. They're still fighting. If we don't go home, isn't it just like scorning those people and all their efforts? Isn't it forgetting who we are?

Don't be so selfish about wanting to stay here. There's a million other people in different timelines and worlds that don't. You should all work hard too to overcome your weaknesses so you're not stuck here anyway. There's people who do want to go home but they're going back to a place worse than this. Because it's home! Even if it's going back to their own death or being alone!

Even if it means losing everything here that is precious...

[A long, pregnant pause and Kushina finishes with a question after shaking her head a little.]

How many of you were given a second chance by being here?

[She closes the journal immediately after.]

Comments

[goldenfirefly]

[Selfishness. Stella has had such problems with that in her life. But this?]

Call it selfish, but I am not abandoning my daughter again.

[fervidity]

[Inhales. Sharply.]

Later, what if you don't have a choice? This world isn't exactly known for keeping people around forever, is it? Being in this world, you have to live with that fact no matter where you go.

[...]

I can't blame you for wanting to spend all the time in the world with her that you can, for not wanting to abandon her or let go. For wanting to teach her things and stay with her, watch her grow up. [A shaky breath] But given the choice of leaving when you can say goodbye and do everything you can right now to make sure she's taken care of or disappearing without a warning, without a choice...

As a mother, I want to be able to protect my child for the future instead of depend on something else to keep me around.

[goldenfirefly]

If we all go back to our own worlds, then she'd be left alone here! Would you rather she have no one else? She's a little girl! I'd be leaving her with nothing if I left!

It's no different than home, even if I was able to go back. A mother can be killed on her way to the grocer without saying goodbye, and yet she still did everything she could to ensure her child grew up, that she was taken care of and loved.

I would rather defy my fate and show her the love of a mother than go home and leave her with nothing.

sorry for the late!

[fervidity]

You're not leaving her with nothing! She has a life because of you, doesn't she? She has love because of you! You love her more than anything, don't you?! Isn't that right?! She wouldn't be alone, either! As long as you made sure of it! You can make sure of it!

I would rather she not have to experience any of the loneliness that comes with a parent that shouldn't even be here in the first place, ya know! But this whole time you knew people leave, that's not a secret. That's not something new. You still know it, isn't that true?

But you're not wrong! ... You're not wrong for wanting to make sure she grows up loved, cared for. That's just how a mother is. Then you should thinking about her and what's best for her and not what you want.

I would want to make sure my child knows she isn't alone instead of wondering when she's going to be.