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[The recent post made by WTF (or WoTF) has finally prompted Kushina to make an entry again, addressing this world at large and the people in it. Or at least those that can see this.
First, a deep breath.]
I don't know if anybody has been thanked for all the effort, for putting their lives on the line to save this world by those of us who don't remember how bad it was. There were people who made this place better for everyone and went back in time. It still sounds ridiculous to me and kind of impossible but this world is good at making impossible things possible, isn't it? [Like bringing people back to life.
Minato was good at it too. Space-time and doing impossible things.]
So... thank you. [At the end, her voice nearly cracks and she bows her head before lifting it again.
Now. Her smile is sad.]
It seems like we can go home soon, huh? That's good. We should go home because that's where we belong. Even if we have a choice to stay, we should go home in the end. So many people have fought for us to do just that. They're still fighting. If we don't go home, isn't it just like scorning those people and all their efforts? Isn't it forgetting who we are?
Don't be so selfish about wanting to stay here. There's a million other people in different timelines and worlds that don't. You should all work hard too to overcome your weaknesses so you're not stuck here anyway. There's people who do want to go home but they're going back to a place worse than this. Because it's home! Even if it's going back to their own death or being alone!
Even if it means losing everything here that is precious...
[A long, pregnant pause and Kushina finishes with a question after shaking her head a little.]
How many of you were given a second chance by being here?
[She closes the journal immediately after.]
First, a deep breath.]
I don't know if anybody has been thanked for all the effort, for putting their lives on the line to save this world by those of us who don't remember how bad it was. There were people who made this place better for everyone and went back in time. It still sounds ridiculous to me and kind of impossible but this world is good at making impossible things possible, isn't it? [Like bringing people back to life.
Minato was good at it too. Space-time and doing impossible things.]
So... thank you. [At the end, her voice nearly cracks and she bows her head before lifting it again.
Now. Her smile is sad.]
It seems like we can go home soon, huh? That's good. We should go home because that's where we belong. Even if we have a choice to stay, we should go home in the end. So many people have fought for us to do just that. They're still fighting. If we don't go home, isn't it just like scorning those people and all their efforts? Isn't it forgetting who we are?
Don't be so selfish about wanting to stay here. There's a million other people in different timelines and worlds that don't. You should all work hard too to overcome your weaknesses so you're not stuck here anyway. There's people who do want to go home but they're going back to a place worse than this. Because it's home! Even if it's going back to their own death or being alone!
Even if it means losing everything here that is precious...
[A long, pregnant pause and Kushina finishes with a question after shaking her head a little.]
How many of you were given a second chance by being here?
[She closes the journal immediately after.]
voice
[It's more complicated than that, but...]
I didn't want to die back home, either. For pretty much most of my life, I was unhappy. I was dumped off with someone who beat the shit out of me when I was little, and then I was turned into a little killing machine before I could even read. But shit happens, and it's no different here. Why are we special? Psht. We're about as special as anyone who outlives someone else. Every day, people are living longer than someone else, getting more than someone else, suffering more than someone else; someone out there is getting a worse fate than us, and someone out there is getting a better fate than us. Doesn't matter the world or time, it's happening with every word coming out of our mouths.
[He sighs.]
It doesn't have to be this complicated. Nobody needs a title other than their name. There doesn't need to be a reason we have a second chance. We don't have to be running away — we're just as easily running toward something. If you believe in fate or a title or destiny or whatever, then you've got to admit, we wouldn't be here if it wasn't our path.
Where is it written that us being alive and staying that way is a mortal sin or some rule that's broken?
voice; i'm sorry!
While he talks, Kushina just gets more quiet from listening to his story.
They're not outliving anyone when they're already dead. If he knows that there's people that have it worse off than him, even if his life sounds as terrible as it is since he was beaten as a boy and turned into that killing machine. She's reminded of Minato, in that sense. Of all ninja who go to the Academy merely to become those killing machines.
Or in Kushina's case, a pacifist who can hold her own in a fight.]
It goes against the very law of life and death itself. People live and then they die, they don't come back just to spend a little extra time with the people they love or with their children. If that were the case, I know thousands and thousands of people who deserve that second chance more than I do. I don't have regrets about dying, I was happy. I wanted more time but I was grateful for the life I had.
I'm grateful for the time I was allowed here, too. I don't know if I want to believe it was fate since fate already decided for me that I should die. It seems stupid that it would decide that I should suddenly live again too. This world decided on it and this world decides on who goes and who stays. Who gets those second chances, what happens to our friends and family that we have no control over.
I know what you're feeling. If I could have it any way, I would want to stay too. It makes sense to want to live, doesn't it? I want to protect this place and the people in it. But I can't betray my own world and the people I love there for my own happiness.
voice; hahaa, no prob!
Good — great to hear you have a cause. If you wanna go so you don't betray your world or your people, that's fine. But our worlds — and this one — don't always go by the same rules yours does. The law of life and death? Doesn't always apply, not like you assume. There are universes here that can use magic, who can turn into creatures and resurrect themselves again and again. Some people do come back in their worlds; not just this one. I'd consider the possibility that your way of life wouldn't make sense to outside worlds.
It's ridiculous to force everyone else to live by someone's standards, or to tell them they should. We're not you.
[He sighs.]
I'll be direct, since we're obviously not going to agree: go or don't go, but don't guilt everyone else into dragging themselves out with you. Calling out other people here who don't want to abide by your sense of duty is a slap in the face before you run off.
Pretty crappy way of saying goodbye, anyway.